Back At It

I know I keep saying I want to write more this year but the fact of the matter is I already have, haha!! We are back into the swing of things with school. I really do a lot better with the consistency of work. While I love summer I just don’t think I’m quite disciplined enough for it. I feel like I am extremely disciplined on a few things and then the rest of my life I am not disciplined at all. It’s not very balanced. I think if I could change something about myself it would be that. I am trying to work on doing better though. Today was actually a very successful day. I was productive at work and then I came home and I stayed busy all afternoon. I didn’t lay down in bed and be on my phone all evening. I failed at my goal of decreasing screen time this summer. I am trying to decrease it again though. It’s no secret that I love twitter and I was contemplating if Twitter loves me back. That is how I am viewing the things in my life right now that I want to keep or remove, “Does this love me back.” The conclusion that I have come to is “yes” twitter does love me back. I have developed an amazing community there. The problem is though that I have not created good boundaries for it. Therefore I am not going to get rid of it all together but for the next week I am going to only check it from my laptop. I hope to do this for a month but let’s be real. I suck at this test the most, haha!

I am also implementing a no spend month. I have a few things that I need to spend on that I have already had plans for but other than that I am not buying anything new and I am going to buy healthy groceries with ingredients to make meals that my kids like and we all enjoy. I spend so much money eating out and I’ve also gained so much weight eating out. Something has got to give for both my health and my pocketbook.

I spent the last couple of years in kind of a plateau in all areas of my life. What was so interesting is I felt peace in that plateau. It was almost like God was saying, “rest” and I really feel like I did. God is always faithful and we do not have to perform for Him. I do want to be faithful to Him too though. I want to be a good steward of my time, body, children, money, friendships, etc. Not only does this benefit me even though it’s hard work I think it brings glory to God too…though honestly, I think my couple years of rest brought glory to Him too. I can’t do it on my own and life is journey. We are not going to be perfect and the beauty of God’s grace is that we don’t have to be.